So I'm totally done with Rick. My best friend has dicked me one too many times. 

Today was awesome.

We went to Shoprite cause the Oscar Mayer thingy was there

 

 

I miss my boyfriend.

A lot

Buddy comes home soon!
Ahh I miss him

Last night was amaing
Jackie slept of my grandparents with me
Ah we talked til 2 in the morning
I miss her
:(

We had so much fun
I love you Jackieee!

Well... gotta go

<3

Alright so I haven't seen Buddy in 2 days :( and I'm extremely bumed.

Maybe Sunday, Monday, or Tuesday he'll come over

Tonight.. no plans yet. Call me? 267-795-7077

Tomorrow.. Jackie might sleep over :) Yay

Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday.. I'm open call me nigg


I got a new purse. It's extremely cute. and a new tee. Die Coca Cola. Yeah! :)
I'm cooler than you

Well gotta go. Yeah

I miss my boyfriend :(

So the past week has been amazing. I've spent everday with Buddy. God I love him... more than anything in this world. 

I got in trouble though. I got caught. Damn.

Whatever.

I love LOVE.

Last night.. I started to get curious. I wondered.. my moms cancer.. could I get it?
Yeah I knew I had a chance of getting it, every girl does, but do I have a higher risk?
I asked dad and he said the doctors at the time said no, but he says things change and doctors aren't always right. I'm a little scared. No I'm lieing. I'm really scared. They have a vaccine for curvical cancer.. and my dad says to get it once your sexually active... he gave me a look. I CAN'T TALK TO MY DAD ABOUT THAT STUFF. ew. So the only thing on my mind anymore is this cancer shit. I'm 15. I shouldn't be worrying about this. My dad used a great annology though.

"Doctors change their minds Nic. Kinda like.. Coffees good for you one day, the next day you're dying from it."

I love him. He always knows how to put things so I understand. 

I got my new cell phone.  I absolutely love my number - 267-795-7077

yeah. Well gotta go call my love!!!

Plans for this weekend anyone. Buddy's at his moms. Call mee


 Just got off the phone with Buddy... I won't see him for... 6 days.
he works a double today, Tomorrow. At his mom Friday, Satuday night. Sunday he's working. Monday and Tuesday he doesn't want to come over cause daddy will be home.. thats like a lot of days. Maybe he'll come over tonight. Who knows. I miss him

a lot

So Buddys birthday sucked. I'm not gonna go into detail. It just sucked. We'll just leave it at that.

Ryan came over though. We all hung out.

Yesterday I didn't do anything. Long story, but I was online with my best friend... Richard Kyle Birdsell all night


yep thats my best friend in this world. No one will ever take his place :)

Today I have no idea what I'm doing. Maybe tanning. Yeah that sounds good.

Well I'm gonna go call Buddy :)

So I've been thinking about my mom a lot lately.
I downloaded the Heaven 911 Remix.. and I cry everytime I hear it.
I'm sitting here crying right now.
It doesn't seem real. I still am convinced she will come back one day.
i just want to see her one more time. Say I love you...

 

Life sucks.

 

It's been a year mommy

I really really miss you

Daddy says your safe now

In a beautiful place called heaven

We had your favorite dinner tonight

I ate it all up

Even though I don't like carrots

I learned how to swim this summer

I can even open my eyes

While I'm under water

Can't you see me?

I started kindergarten this year

I carry a picture of us

In my Blue's Clues lunchbox

You are the greatest mommy

I can swing on the swing by myself

Even though I miss you pushing me

Can't you see me?

I miss how you used to tickle me

Tickle my belly

My belly hurts

I try not to cry

Daddy says it's okay

I know you don't like it when I cry

You never wanted me to be sad

I try mommy but it hurts

Is it true you're not coming home?

Maybe someday

I can visit you in heaven, okay?

It's time for me to go bed now

I sleep with the light on

Just in case you come home

And kiss me good night

I love you so much

I miss you mommy



Her birthdays in 3 weeks. It's gonna suck, like usual. 
I need someone to talk to... Jackies sleeping..

I love you mom

So today was gonna be one of the worst days.
Buddy had to work a double. I was only gonna see him for 2 hours.

So I woke up and rushed to get ready. Got done everything and sat out front on the phone with Chels. Then Buddy came. We went to his house to pick up money. Then went to Guiseppis. We ate and then came back here. Chilled here for 30 minutes then he went to work. So I get dressed and go out back to tan. I put so much tanning oil on and I get a phone call. Buddy said he had a surprise for me. So he said meet me at the top of your street. So I get scared that he has a squirrel, because he's mean and would do that to me. So I throw on his sweats and walk up the street. I get there and he gives me an empty bottle of gatorade. Then I said why the hell aren't you at work and he said he had to go cause the boss would be pissed. 

He lied. He came home with me. He didn't have work. He thought he did, but the boss fucked up his schedule. So he came back here and we... did whatever.. then he left. Just up and left. His daddy picked him up.

So here I am. Alone. Blahhhhh.

Tonight should be fun. Jens sleeping over. *i hope*

Then tomorrow is my loves birthday :)

I love you baby. Happy almost birthday!!!!

So today...

Woke up. Ran around the block. Yeah that was interesting. I'm so out of fucking shape it's unbelievable! Came home and decided I was gonna go to my grandparents to burn a CD. So I called and they picked me up. We went to look for my new cell phone, but they didn't have it. So we went home and I burned a few CDs and came home. Tanned for like 20 minutes. Then called Chelsea. She was in the pool talking to me :) We're cool like that. So Buddy came over and I told Chels I would call her back, which I still haven't done. Sorry babyy girl. Me and Buddy went to his house. No one was home. Hahha you sick fucks. So we went to the basement and cut his hair :) I did so amazing. And he was proud of me for knowing what a Phillips Head screw driver was and for finding the smallest one. He said I was "the best" well duh! lol. So I cut the back and around his ears. and Damn I did amazing! So we went upstairs and he got changed then we went out to the pool. Swam for like an hour then his daddy came home and told him he had to go to work with him. So we got out, dried off and then we went out front to move the truck. So Buddy moved the truck then his daddy took me home :)

I love my boyfriend so much. I didn't take pics today. The hair was such a drama fest. It didn't work right, then I was telling him he kept missing spots. It was hilarious!

2 fucking days and he'll be 18. My God. I feel like a fucking child. 

I can't believe I'm gonna be 16. Damn. I'm sikedddd!!

Well must be going dinnaaa

So yesterday was... okay.

In the morning I was pissed that Buddy never called me last night so I said fuck it, I'm not calling him today. So I sat around. All morning.

I sat in the car for awhile and talked on the phone with Chelsea

Psh yeah I'm way too cool.

So I thought, I'll be nice and atleast talk out front since I knew if Buddy did decide to stop by it would have been soon (around 12). So because I'm a genius there was my lovely boyfriend walked down the street. I got off the phone with Chelsea and Me and Buddy threw rocks around. I can only catch the brown ones. God knows why. So we hung out front for like 15 minutes. Then we went inside and he tried to sleeep, but I wouldn't let him. I wasn't gonna listen to him snore for another hour. So he bit me... AGAIN

Tell me you can't see that circle. Every one of his teeth are there. It's a huge bruise now. Thank you baby.
So he left at like quarter to 2. I miss him a lot.

So I came home and called Chelsea and tanned a little. We decided that today I'll go over there a little after 10... but I don't know if I really want to. I'm gonna start running though. I'm so out of shape and getting fat. Yuckkk!! 

So I took some pics -




So yeah. My tummys also getting a little chub chub. (yeah new word. wanna fight)

So I came inside after 20 minutes. It was so hot out. I went online and talked to my best friend Rick.

$1000 cash babyy  :)

. He's honostly my best friend in this world. I don't know where I would be without you. You are my rock. Whenever I'm having a bad day you know how to make me happy. You always have my back no matter what and I will always love you :)
prom baby. i love you richard kyle birdsell :)

So I think I'm gonna get changed, and then at 7:30 I'll probably run around the block, then Ima get a shower.
I think I'm going to Buddys today to cut his hair. Ugh I'm scaredddd!!!

Well wish me luckk :)

Alrighttyy

It's been awhile don't ya think!? 

I can't remember where I left off and to tell you the truth, I could care less.

Yesterday I woke up way too early. Went home. The tree guy came to give us an estimate. We talked about smoking blunts :-\. He's a weirdo. He left. I just chilled. Buddy came over at 12. He started to fall asleep, but I decided we needed to eat. So we went to Guiseppi's. Talked to the cops for a little. Came back here and Buddy could barley stay awake from our long week. So I told him to go asleep. He slept from 1:30-2:00. He snored. It was annoying. I had the TV so loud. :) I love him though. His daddy called at 2:30. I should of made the damn bet I could of won! So of course I wouldn't let him leave. We took pics. We look high, but I'll post the one...

Yeah so we're losers. So we started walking. he was ignoring me and I jumped on his back... and we kinda fell. It was hilariousss. Then we were going to leave and I told him that we had plans for next saturday. He thinks it has something to do with his birthday, but it doesn't. I have no clue what to plan for Friday.  ANY SUGGESTIONS!?!??!

 My best friend- - Joe


Me and Char _-


Happy birthday Sean :)

Today!! = amazinngg!

Woke up.. Cable guy came!... WE HAVE CABLE BITCHES!

Asked Randi, Chelsea, and Liz to come over. They said they would. Buddy came over. Then Rachael. Then Buddy left. Then the girls came over. 

We just chilled. Buddy came back. The girls got drunk. Except Ru. Buddy and Rachael left. 

Chelsea peed outback.

I cooked the girls food. Chelsea- Pizza. Liz- Bagel. Randi- Hot Pocket. Gave them napkins.

Liz peed. 

Liz spilled popcorn all over.

I rubbed Randis back.

They left. I vacuumed. Cleaned up.


The guy came to give us an estimate for the trees. $650... $250 an hour. Thats a lot of money

Dad has inspection on Thursday.

Seans birthday is Saturday.


Everyones breaking up...

I miss you Brittinni!!! 



Francoo!! You better come and visit mee!!


Me and the boys from 8th grade gym class!! Miss you guyss!


Rachel and Mark!! I love you guys. Best Cousins ever!


"I like to take it up the butt" -- Thanks Jimmy!




RIP Bicycle-Built-For-Two. So Many Good Times!!


Norman and Daniel! Love you boyss


My birthday "cake" in school :) Thanks Katlin, Krissy, and De! :) 




















After Finals. I love all you... except matt and creciun .. hehe: )


Block Party!!

Lets Dance!!

Me, Ash, Jax, Sam

Jean, Jackie, Sam, Karen, Me, Ash

Jax, Sam, Jean, Karen, Ash, Me, Dan!

Jax, Kare, Dan, Beth

Jean, Jen, Me, Ash, Beth

Everyone Singing!

Chillen!

Everyone at my house. Anthony, Chas, Sam, Chris, Dan, Kare, Beth

Chas, Matt, Jose, Jean

Lets ElectricSlide!

Anthony Running, Dan, Jen, Jess, Jean, Sam

Kelly, Me, Ash

Kelly

Anthony (nice attempt), Dan, Jen, Jess, Sam


Me, Kare, Jean

Jose, Me

Matt, Me, Jose, Chas

More Latter!!

Me and Sami are man whore cops. Wanna mess!?





Me and Baby!!


Baby!


Me and My Best Sami!!


Me and Lacey.. I miss your singing girlie!!


B I don't know where I would of been without you this year!


Jackie! I love you girl. Can't wait til you come to Tennent :)


















Thats my best friend in the world Richard Kyle Birdsell :)


Adding more in the next entry

Mark with X's the bands that you listen to. Be honest.

RADIO ROCK
[x ] Nickelback
[ ] Disturbed
[ ] Shinedown
[ ] Seether
[ ] Sevendust
[x ] System of a Down
[ ] Flyleaf
[ ] Staind
[ ] Drowning Pool
[ ] Taproot
[ ] Mudvayne
[ ] Audioslave
[ ] Trapt
[x ] KoRn
[ x] Three Days Grace
[ ] Evans Blue
[ ] Godsmack


COUNTRY
[ x] Rascal Flatts
[x ] Carrie Underwood
[x ] Leanne Rhymes
[x ] Garth Brooks
[ ] Dixie Chicks
[x ] Kenny Chesney
[x ] Tim McGraw
[x ] Faith Hill
[ ] Hank Williams Jr.
[ x] Shania Twain
[ ] Johnny Cash
[ ] Willie Nelson
[x ] The Charlie Daniels Band
[ ] Merle Haggard
[x ] Keith Urban
[ ] Hank Williams


PSYCHOBILLY
[ ] Nekromantix
[ ] Tiger Army
[ ] HorrorPops
[ ] The Cramps
[ ] Mad Sin
[ ] The Meteors
[ ] Reverend Horton Heat
[ ] Demented Are Go!
[ ] Batmobile
[ ] Guana Batz
[ ] The Gun Club
[ ] Klingonz
[ ] Hellbillys
[ ] The Phenomenauts


POP
[ ] Teddy Geiger
[ ] Ashlee Simpson
[ ] Kelly Clarkson
[ ] Madonna
[ ] Avril Lavigne
[ ] Pink
[ ] The Veronicas
[x ] Daniel Powter
[x ] James Blunt
[ ] Natasha Bedingfield
[ ] Ryan Cabrera


EMO
[x ] Hawthorne Heights
[ ] Halifax
[ ] Fightstar
[x ] Taking Back Sunday
[ ] Forgive Durden
[x ] From First To Last
[x ] Senses Fail
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit The Lights
[x ] Dashboard Confessional (old)
[ ] Dear Whoever
[x ] Funeral For A Friend
[ ] Silverstein
[x ] The Used
[ ] The Spill Canvas
[x ] Saves The Day
[ ] Further Seems Forever
[ ] The Juliana Theory


INDIE
[] The Hush sound
[x] Death Cab For Cutie
[x] The Killers[so not indie]
[] Elliot Smith
[] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[] Belle and Sebastian
[x] The Postal Service
[x] Bright Eyes
[x] Franz Ferdinand[so not indie]
[x] Modest Mouse
[] Cursive
[] The Arcade Fire
[] The Shins
[] The Decemberists
[] Sufjan Stevens
[] Neutral Milk Hotel
[] Iron & Wine
[x] Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
[x] Bloc Party
[] Minus the Bear


METAL
[ ] Amon Amarth
[ ] Dimmu Borgir
[ ] Carcass
[ ] Children of Bodom
[ ] Emperor
[ ] Carpathian Forest
[ ] Arcturus
[ ] Opeth
[ ] Ayreon
[ ] Cannibal Corpse
[ ] At The Gates
[ ] Burzum
[ ] Therion
[ ] Mayhem
[ ] Necrophagist
[ ] Darkthrone
[ ] Celtic Frost
[ ] Gorgoroth
[ ] Satyricon
[ ] Finntroll
[ ] Anaal Nathrakh
[ ] Testament
[ ] Atheist
[ ] Bathory
[ ] Deicide
[ ] Slayer
[x ] Metallica


METALCORE
[x] As I Lay Dying
[x] Atreyu
[] Lamb of God
[] Killswitch Engage
[] Unearth
[] Throwdown
[] Becoming the Archetype
[] Between the Buried and Me
[x] Norma Jean
[] Zao
[] Converge
[] Botch
[] Bullet for my Valentine
[] Still Remains
[] Bleeding Through
[] Trivium


HARDCORE [ these aren't hardxcore.]
[ ] Bane
[ ] Looking Forward
[ ] Sick of it All
[ ] Madball
[ ] Agnostic Front
[ ] Gorilla Biscuits
[ ] Good Clean Fun
[ ] Donnybrook!
[ ] Champion
[ ] Casey Jones
[ ] Black My Heart
[ ] Hoods
[ ] Minor Threat
[ ] Death Before Dishonor
[ ] The Warriors
[ ] Bishopx
[ ] Too Pure To Die
[ ] Sinking Ships


POST HARDCORE
[ x] Thursday
[ ] At The Drive-In
[x ] The Blood Brothers
[x ] Alexisonfire
[ ] The Fall of Troy
[x ] Glassjaw
[ ] Chiodos
[ ] mewithoutYou
[ ] Drive Like Jehu
[ ] Sparta
[ ] Botch
[ ] Bear Vs. Shark
[ ] These Arms Are Snakes
[x ] Coheed and Cambria
[ ] The Recieving End of Sirens
[ ] He Is Legend
[x ] Scary Kids Scaring Kids


POWERPOP
[x ] Hellogoodbye
[x ]The All-American Rejects
[x ] Fountains of Wayne
[ x] Head Automatica
[ x] Weezer
[x ] Panic! At the Disco
[ ] Jellyfish
[ ] Teenage Fanclub
[ ] The Lashes
[ ] The Lost Patrol Band
[x ] The Click Five
[x ] Cute is What We Aim For
[ ] Wilco
[ ] The Exploding Hearts


PUNK
[ ] Rancid
[x ] NOFX
[ ] Bad Religion
[x ] Misfits
[ ] Anti-Flag
[x ] Sex Pistols
[x ] Alkaline Trio [old]
[ ] Dropkick Murphys
[x ] Pennywise
[ ] Millencolin
[ ] operation Ivy
[ x] Descendents
[ ] Dead Kennedys
[ x] AFI


POP PUNK
[x ] Blink-182
[ x] Green Day
[x ] New Found Glory
[ ] Good Charlotte
[x ] Relient K
[x ] Sum 41
[x ] The Starting Line
[x ] Simple Plan
[ ] The Offspring
[ ] Lagwagon
[x ] Box Car Racer
[x ] Motion City Soundtrack
[ ] The Queers
[ ] Screeching Weasel
[ ] The Mr T Experience
[] The Riverdales


STREET PUNK
[x ] The Unseen
[x ] The Casualties
[ ] GBH
[ ] The Varukers
[ ] Cock Sparrer
[ ] The Virus
[ ] The Exploited
[x ] Sham 69
[x ] Lower Class Brats
[ ] Clit 45
[ s] U.S. Bombs
[ ] Leftover Crack
[ ] Subhumans
[ x] Anti-Nowhere League


RAP
[ x] Ying Yang Twins
[x ] Bubba Sparxxx
[ ] Haystak
[xxxxx ] Paul Wall
[x ] Jay-Z
[x ] Nas
[ x] DMX
[ x] Ice Cube
[x ] Tupac Shakur
[x ] Jamie Foxx
[ ] Cypress Hill
[x ] Ludacris
[x ] Lil Jon
[x ] Eminem
[x ] 50 Cent
[x ] Kanye West
[x ] Bow Wow
[ ] Wu Tang Clan


HIP-HOP
[ ] Dilated Peoples
[x ] Mos Def
[ ] Atmosphere
[ ] Sage Francis
[ ] Talib Kweli
[ ] Aesop Rock
[ ] Blackalicious
[ ] Souls of Mischief
[ ] MF DOOM
[x ] Jurassic 5
[ ] Jedi Mind Tricks
[ ] Common
[ ] Gangstarr
[ ] A Tribe Called Quest
[ ] Ghostface Killa
[ ] Pete Rock
[ ] De La Soul
[ ] Necro
[ ] Immortal Technique
[ ] Ill Bill


SKA
[ ] Streetlight Manifesto
[ ] The Mighty Mighty Bosstones
[ ] Big D and The Kids Table
[ ] The Toasters
[x ] Goldfinger
[ ] The Aquabats
[ ] Reel Big Fish
[ ] Fortunado
[ ] Skankin' Pickle
[ ] Madness
[ ] The Skatalites
[ ] Voodoo Glow Skulls
[ ] Five Iron Frenzy
[ ] Tip The Van
[ ] Stealing From Peter
[ ] The Specials
[ ] Catch 22


CLASSIC ROCK
[ ] The Doors
[x ] The Beatles
[x ] The Rolling Stones
[x ] The Clash
[x ] The Who
[x ] Aerosmith
[ ] Black Sabbath
[ ] The Kinks
[x ] Kiss
[ x] The Ramones
[x ] Pink Floyd
[x ] Led Zeppelin
[ ] Heart
[x ] Guns N Roses
[ x] Jimi Hendrix


90's ALTERNATIVE
[ x] Sublime
[x ] Cake
[ ] Spin Doctors
[ x] Smashing Pumpkins
[ ] Gin Blossoms
[ ] Alice In Chains
[ ] Soundgarden
[ ] Toad the Wet Sprocket
[x ] 311
[ ] Live
[ ] Bush
[x ] Third Eye Blind
[x ] Goo Goo dolls
[x ] Barenaked Ladies
[ x] Counting Crows
[x ] No Doubt
[x ] Nirvana
[x ] matchbox20
[x ] eve 6


INDUSTRIAL
[ ] KMFDM
[ ] Ministry
[ x] Nine Inch Nails
[ ] Laibach
[ ] Einstürzende Neubauten
[ ] Skinny Puppy
[ ] Front Line Assembly
[ ] VNV Nation
[ ] Crossbreed
[ ] :wumpscut:
[ ] Throbbing Gristle
[ ] Hocico
[ ] Combichrist
[ ] Assemblage 23
[ ] Front 242
[ ] Funker Vogt
[ ] Psyclon 9
[ ] Suicide Commando
[ ] Grendel
[ ] Nitzer Ebb
[ ] Haujobb
[ ] The Birthday Massacre
[ ] Mortiis


ELECTROCLASH
[ ] Ladytron
[ ] Fischerspooner
[ ] Peaches
[ ] ADULT
[ ] Freezepop
[ ] Daft Punk
[ ] Goldfrapp
[ ] Shiny Toy Guns
[ ] Clear Static
[ ] The Faint
[ ] The Knife
[ x] She Wants Revenge
[ ] Chicks on Speed
[ ] LCD Soundsystem
[ ] Dirty Sanchez
[ ] Le Tigre


ELECTRONICA
[x ] The Chemical Brothers
[ ] Prodigy
[x ] Moby
[ ] The Crystal Method
[ ] Aphex Twin
[ ] Basement Jaxx
[ ] Juno Reactor
[ ] Amon Tobin
[ ] Orbital
[ ] Paul Oakenfold
[ ] Unkle
[ ] Tricky
[ ] Benny Benassi
[ ] Photek
[ ] Roni Size
[ ] LTJ Bukem
[ ] Boom Bip
[ ] Captain Jack

basic info

* what is your name?: Nicole. Preferably Nic

* what is the current date?: 7/22/06

* what is your sex?: Female

* what is your birthday?: 12/5

* what is your current relationship status?: Buddy Mullen <3 love you baby

* what is your sexual orientation? (if you don't mind me asking): Straight

* what character traits do you look for in a potential interest?: Funny, Nice, Caring, Chill

* what sort of people do you like, as far as what they're interested in in life?: I like chill people that can go out every once in a while

* what physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?: Eyes, Body, Calf Mousles. Ugh!!

* what kind of fashion-sense attracts you?: Anything really

* what kind of hair style do you find attractive on a potential mate?: Doesn't matter. It has to match your face though

* what is the usual age range you look at?: 16-18?

* what traits turn you off?: Fighting none stop.

* do you prefer to date various people, or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?: Depends

* are you afraid to ask people out on dates?: No



single life

* if you're single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?:___

* what are the positive points about being single?: Nothing to worry about

* what are the negative points about being single?: No one to care about you

* when single, do you often find youself longing for companionship?: yes

* how well do you handle rejection?: Not well

* do you miss your last sweetie?: ? idk

* do you think it's better to look for love, or let it find you?: both



when you're in a relationship

* if you're currently in a relationship right now, how long have you been in it?: almost a month

* what's the longest relationship you've been in?: 8 months

* the shortest?: 1 week?

* what are the positive points about being in a relationship?: Aw everything!

* what are the negative points about being in a relationship?: Nothing

* have you ever gone out with someone you didn't know very well?: Yeah kinda

* have you ever gone out with someone you had a crush on?: Yes

* have you ever gone out with someone who had a crush on you?: Yes

* what is an example of an ideal, perfect day with your sweetie?: Lunch, Swimming, Couch. The usual!

* how important is it to you to know the exact status of your relationships (ie: "dating", "going steady", etc)?:Uh. kinda I don't know

* do you think couples should spend a very large amount of time together, or space things out a tad?: Depends. I don't wanna be a hypocrite

* have you ever found yourself worried about commitment?: No

* when involved, do you try to think about the here-and-now, or do you often think about the future?: Everything

* how do you prefer to handle disagreements?: Haha let Buddy win. It's easier

* when in a fight, it is better to euphamize things to soften the hurt, or should one be blunt?: Buddys blunt, I just kinda chill and let him go at it

* how do you feel when your mate is mad at you and won't tell you why?: He always does, that would be me. Buddy hates it



feelings

* do you have a crush right now?: I'm in love

* do they know?: Yes

* what's the longest period of time you've ever had a crush?: I don' tknow

* have you ever confessed your feelings to a crush?: Yes

* has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?: Yes

* do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?: Depends

* how do you feel about long-distance relationships?: Been there, done that

* if so, does a phone call with them make you feel better of worse?: Better

* have you ever pined for someone when you're not around them?: Pined??

* would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?: Yes

* what would you do if you got pregnant / made her pregnant while in a relationship?: Eck. Antonio Bolonio :)

* would you get involved with someone if they were previously married?: Sure

* how big of an issue is your mate's morals, to your compatibility?: I don't know. What are morals

* how big of an issue is political beliefs, to your compatibility?: None. Hate politics

* how big of an issue is religion to your compatibility?: You believe what you want

* how big of an issue to you is your mate's ethnicity?: Who cares. We're all the same

* in a potential mate, how important is conversation to you?: Very.

* in a potential mate, how important is intelligence to you?: I don't know. As long as you have common sense we're cool

* in a potential mate, how important is sense of humor to you?: Very. I love laughing

* in a potential mate, how important is understanding to you?: Totally important.

* in a potential mate, how important is forgiveness to you?: Somewhat important depending on the situation

* how tangible do your shared feelings have to be? (aka: are words even necessary?): Sometimes. We read each others minds a lot.

* what makes your heart flutter, and brings a bit cheesy smile to your face?: Half smiles. I get my butterflies.



makin' out

* what was your first kiss like?: Amazing

* what parts of a person's body do you find most attractive?: Calves, Stomach, Eyes.

* what's the first thing you look at when you look at someone you're attracted to?: Eyes

* how important is the looks of a mate's face to you?: Kinda important, I'd be lieing if I said it's not

* how important is the looks of a mate's body to you?: Pretty important. I'm trying to cut fatty down on the stombolis.

* when you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it, or the other?: Both I think

* when you are about to kiss someone for the first time, do you generally feel calm, or are you nervous?: Calm

* can you generally tell when the time is right for a first kiss to happen with your object of interest?: yes, The look

* what are you're favorite places to be touched?: Neck, Ear.

* what are your favorite places to touch?: Stomach, Arms

* what are you're favorite places to be kissed?: Neck, Ears

* what are your favorite places to kiss?: Stomach

* do you prefer long sensual kisses or shorter pecks?: Both

* have you ever kissed someone you longed for?: Yes

* how did that make you feel?: Bad

* have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren't seriously involved with?: Yes

* were you single at the time?: No

* what are your ticklish areas?: Eck. My ribs

* what are your turn-offs?: Someone who touches my stomach all the time, except for Buddy <3

* what do you most like about making out?: Buddys cold mouth



sex (there are a lot of action-specific questions I could ask, but I'll save those for the purity tests) (oh, and remember, all this is optional)

* are you a virgin?: No

*if not, would you consider your first time to have been a good one?: No lol.

* how old were you when you lost your virginity?: 12

* have you ever had sex with someone you loved?: No

* have you ever turned down an offer for sex?: Yes

* if you are a virgin, how do you feel about sex?: __

* if you are a virgin, (rock on!), what are your reasons to stay that way?: ___

* how much do you think sex changes a relationship?: Not really, maybe kinda

* has anyone ever walked in on you during love-making?: No. people have been there though

* on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being highest) how would you rate your sexual attractiveness?: I don't understand the question

* on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being highest) how would you rate your - *ahem* - kink factor?: ohh ... 8

* how do you feel about casual sex?: It's alright.

* at what level of importance does sex factor into your relationships?: mm just a little.

* how important is it to talk frankly about sex?: ha Buddy does it so I have to responde

* would you stay with a lover if the love stopped, but the sex was still enjoyable?: No

* would you stay with a lover if the sex stopped / got boring, but there was still love?: Yes



love

* do you believe in love?: Yes

* do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes. It happend

* what would it take for you to love someone?: You jus tknow. Theres no standards for love

* has someone ever told you they loved you?: Yes

* have you ever told someone you loved them and meant it?: Yes

* have you ever told someone you loved them and not meant it?: unfortuently yes, sorry!!!!

* do you believe it's necessary to express your love in words, of is just the atmosphere and feelings enough?: Um both

* are you a monogamous person, or do you believe in open-ended realtionships?: Depends

* do you believe love can end, or do you think it never goes away, and just changes, or what?: I think love can never end. You will always love that person, there is just something missing from the relationship. People change



marriage

* have you ever been married?: No lol

* how do you feel about marriage?: Someday

* if you're currenlty not married, do you foresee yourself ever tying the knot?: Yes

* do you plan on having children some day?: Yes ANTONIO BOLONIO

* what are your feelings on polyamoury (an "open" marriage, aka: swinging)?: Nahh

* Do you feel that Bill Clinton's extramarital affairs were really the business of everyone else in the world?: No not at all



breakups

* have you ever had your heart broken?: yes

* have you ever been dumped?: Yes

* have you ever dumped someone?: Yes

* have you ever mutually broke up with someone?: Yes

* has a romantic companion ever made you cry?: Yes

* did you cry in thier presence?: Not about that

* did you cry with them?: yes

* have you ever made a romantic companion cry?: yes i think, Also sorry!

* have you ever had an emotional pain so bad it made you sick or physically hurt?: yes!

* have you ever been unfaithful? if so, how did it make you feel?: eck yes i have everytime I think. Horrible after

* if so, did they find out?: Some did

* have you ever been cheated on? if so, how did it make you feel?: Nope

* have you ever had to end a relationship due to life changes not related to romance (ie: moving, strict parents, etc)?: Yes

* have you ever learned an important lesson as a result of a break up?: Yes, fuck fighting



the aftermath

* have you ever gotten back together with someone after breaking up?: yes

* did it work?: obviously not

* do you believe there's hope for people after they get back together, or do you think the same problems that caused the initial break-up will resurface?: No I think it can work. Like I said love never dies

* have you ever broke up and remained friends afterward?: yes

* have you ever broke up and became bitter enemies?: haha yes.

* if so, did you ever made amends?: no way

* have you ever broke up and lost touch?: yes :(

* have you ever got back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?: Yes

* were you afraid to do so?: Very.

* do you ever check up on old flames (weather by asking mutual friends, for example), without actually contacting them?: Yeah, not in a stalker way, just to see whats up how they are

* if you've ever lost touch or went sour with someone who you loved, how did it make you feel?: Kinda good but bad.

* have you ever longed to get back together with someone?: At one time yes

* although it surely depends of specific relationships, how long does it take before your out looking for companionship again?: Depends on the length of the relationship and the person.

WHATS YOUR TAKE ON SANDLES?: Love them! Except on guys, then you're gay

HOW MANY PAIRS DO YOU OWN?: 12

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR?: All them!

WHAT'S YOUR NORMAL SUMMER ATTIRE?: Bathing suit top and cute jeans

ARE YOU A BOATER?: Ha never

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE SUMMER ACTIVITY?: Tanning or swimming with Buddy

WHAT'S YOUR MOST MEMORABLE SUMMER VACATION?: 2004 Wildwood

ARE YOU A CAMPER?: Never!

BASEBALL FAN?: LOVE IT!

WHAT'S YOUR METHOD OF TANNING DURING THE SUMMER MONTHS?: Just lay there, burn then tan

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE SUMMER MONTH, WHY?: August... Just because

LEAST FAVORITE SUMMER MONTH?: June

4TH OF JULY PLANS?: Whatver happens happens

SUNBATHING OR TANNING SALON?: sunbathing

SELF TANNER OR ALL NATURAL?: natural

SWIMMING IN RIVERS AND LAKES OR AT A POOL?: pool

CAMPING IN AN R.V OR IN A TENT?: tent, we'll ruff it

TENT OR SLEEPING BAG UNDER THE STARS?: sleeping bag

GOING TO A BASEBALL GAME OR SPENDING THE DAY SHOPPING?: oh tuffy! baseball!

VACATION OR STICKING AROUND THE HOME TURF?: both

PANTS OR SHORTS?: jeans

ICE CREAM OR POPSICLE?:ice cream

SHORTS OR SKIRT?: skirt

TANK TOPS OR TEES?: tank tops

SHOES OR SANDLES?: sandles

HAIR UP OR HAIR DOWN?: down

SPENDING MORE TIME OUTDOORS OR INSDIDE WITH THE AIR CONDITIONING?: outdoors

SUMMER OR SPRING?: summer

DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL DURING THE SUMMER?: no

DO YOU TRAVEL DURING THE SUMMER?: sometimes

DO YOU HAVE A REGULAR SUMMER JOB? WHAT IS IT?: nope too lazy, buddy works enough for the world to take off for a year

DO YOU HAVE A REGUALR SUMMER ACTIVITY? WHAT?: yeah seeing buddy!

DO YOU WEAR HATS DURING THE SUMMER?: no yuck

DO YOU GO SWIMMING A LOT?: kinda

DO YOU PARTY MORE DURING THE SUMMER MONTHS?: yes

DO YOU GO OUT MORE WITH YOUR FRIENDS?: yes

DO YOU WORK A LOT MORE IN THE SUMMER?: no

DO YOU DATE A LOT MORE IN THE SUMMER OR GO OUT MORE WITH YOUR BF/GF?: yes

DO YOU WISH YOU COULD GO ON A SPECIFIC VACATION? WHERE?: wildwood for the whole summer!

DO YOU GO TO MOVIES OR THE DRIVE IN MORE IN THE SUMMER?: yeah

DO YOU GO TO THE BEACH A LOT?: yes, not this year that much though

DO YOU PREFER TO BE TAN DURING THE SUMMER?: yes!. Competting with Buddy

Yesterday was alright I guess.

I woke up extrememly early. I went to bed early because Buddy was tired. So I wake up at like 6:45. YUCK! I called my grandparents to see if we could go shopping :). They said yes of course. We went out and I bought a new white polo :) Yep. Then we got chinese food. I came home and waited for Buddy to call. He called around 12:30ish and said he'd be over. So I met him part of the way and we walked back here. We sat here for awhile and someone decided he wanted to go swimming. I didn't wanna swim, but I said I would chill there anyway if we wanted to swim. So he started argueing and I ended up going, but not swimming.

We got to his house and he changed while I played with Ashley, Sean, and the new puppy. So he came out and we went out back and I told Ash to run in and get her bathing suit on. So me and Buddy went out back and he decided it would be hilarious to squirt me with the water gun. It was by far the hottest water I have ever felt in my life. I screamed it was so hot. He kept squirting me and by the time he was done, my jeans and shirt were soaked. So he thought it was HILARIOUS! Then I wouldn't talk to him so he swam over to where I was sitting and pulled my legs and the whole bottom part of my pants went into the water! So I told him to get me a pair of shorts and I'd change and put them on and come in (I had a bathinsuit top on). So he comes out with a pair of shorts and I went in, changed, and gave my wet clothes to Hollie to put into the dryer. Then I went out back. Went in the pool. I never knew how funny it felt to wear basketball shorts in the pool. I could barley move! So Ashley and Buddy played with waterguns and then we had races. Buddy won everytime. BITCH! So around... 3ish we got out and dried off and shit. Then he walked me home :) I love him. So he said goodbye and whatever then walked home. Now he's in Lansdale for the weekend. He has off Sunday, but I think I have plans :(.

I'm planning something for his birthday, I just don't know what yet. Me and Rachael are brainstorming. It's in 2 weeks so that gives me time. He doesn't like surprises so who knows how this all will turn out. He'll be 18. WOHOP!

I think I'm hanging out with Rachael tonight. Yep!

New layout, ya like?! :)

Well must be going. My hairs curly and It needs straightening!

P.S. No bruises, or bites :)

P.S.S. I'm in a bead necklace mood

P.S.S.S. Still not cable, which means Comcast will be getting a call from Nic today :)